Monday, December 26, 2011

Patience

I think over the many years of dating and break-ups, if there’s anything I learnt about loving someone and being in a relationship, it’s patience.

It’s not about how sweet you can be, how much gifts you give, or even how much you’re willing to do for your loved one. It’s about how patient and understanding you can be when things aren’t going right, when someone does something that makes you angry, sad, or hurt.

If I think over every single argument I’ve had in the past, and the break ups, most of the time, if only one side could be more patient and understanding, everything could’ve been prevented.

It’s actually really easy to treat someone nicely, it’s easy to do a lot of sweet things for someone, it’s easy to shower someone with love and gifts. But it’s so hard, so hard, to be understanding and patient when things aren’t going the way you want. It took me so many years to try to learn this, and even now I can’t say it’s easy, but I know I’m trying.

In this relationship, I lose in almost every argument I have with my girlfriend. Not because I have no sense of principle or opinion. It’s because I think that for almost every argument, it’s not really important who wins, deep inside, most of us all know what’s right and wrong. It’s just at the heat of the moment, we become stubborn, or we let our emotions take over our logic and we argue. In the past, every time I win an argument, after it’s all over, I know deep inside who was right and who was wrong. If you care and love someone, try to just let little meaningless things go, sometimes even let the big things slide... just a piece of my mind.


by: hjstory.deviantart.com This what I should take in mind.

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Owl City

Something about Owl City songs always reminds me of you. Innocent, full of life, sophisticated, and unique.

I'm alone listening to On The Wing and I miss you so much, D :))

Saturday, October 22, 2011

My Big Mouth and What is Important

I was always all talk.

Speaking wise and pretty words while in fact, I never done any of them. Take off my speech and there's nothing left of me but a pathetic shell of a man. I was fine until I realized talk is cheap and it means nothing in front of you.

Do you know how I admired you so much? I admire your actions; how you do them without talking at all. You rarely say a word, instead you will do what you're supposed to do, without asking anyone to take notice. You have that self-consciousness that not many people in this world have.

You once said that when you dislike something, you try to be the exact opposite of it; Does that mean you dislike the way I treated you like I will play with you only when I'm bored? It's not that way at all, but words are so cheap.

That's how I came to resent myself. I was your polar opposite, and somehow I end up with a person as wonderful as you. I feel undeserving, yet at the same time, fortunate. Somehow I would hate myself for not being as good as a partner as you.

Most of the time, I didn't give that much thought on it.

What was the most important thing in my life? Along the road of life, the answer is often forgotten. Waves of experience would wash over me overwhelmingly, to the point where I forget about everything else. What is the most important thing in my life?

I'm not denying the fact that I 've done horrible as your partner in these years of your life, and maybe you deserve someone better. But seeing as we're stuck together already, maybe I should stop talking right now and be a better man, be the best man I can be for the best woman God has entrusted me with.


Your kindness is so dazzling it put me to shame.

written in shame and guilt. The night where I failed to put she who's the most important to me first.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

We're Lucky

If you ever forget of what we're doing, just remember that we're just one of thousands circumstances who have blessed with tons of luck.

We're lucky to have fallen for each other.
We're lucky to be apart from each other to explore ourselves more, but not too far to ease yearning.
We're lucky to have found someone who matches our wavelength.
We're lucky to have the chance to live the fairytale out of the movies.
We're lucky to have a very understanding pair.
We're lucky to be capable to share feelings for each other, even it's not in the level of love, we're far better from those people who love someone that don't belong with them.
We're lucky to have problems so we can learn some life lessons.

We are lucky from those people who don't share the happiness stated above, K! :)


ps: written at 1 AM when I got insomniac-problem and K's already sleeping on his bed.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

So, here's the picture of the Seafood Mix I promised you!

Da Seafood Mix.

The skin was so gooood, but the filling is a little bit disappointing. The best Hakau I ate was when I go out with D to this food court in Bogor, but it's damn expensive. 14.000 rupiahs for 3 Hakaus, WHY ARE DIMSUMS EXPENSIVE?

Anyway, The Chinese Box also serves Bapau, Shomai, Rice Noodles, Noodles, Kungpao Chicken, and many more XD. Gotta try them later :3

Monday, July 18, 2011

A Booth Out Front

So I was just arriving in Bandung like an hour ago. I went back to Bogor on the weekend to fetch my high school and National Exam certificate, while stealing time to spent with D. Even now I'm still feeling the aftertaste of hanging out with her, lols. But enough with cheesiness, that's not the point of this post, actually.

So, on the way to my boarding house (kosan, for you Indonesian fellow), there's this really small red booth/shop in front of a house I notice every time I walk to my campus. It's a booth called "Chinese Box" that serves takeaway Chinese Food for the price of 15.000 rupiahs. And every single morning, when I'm making my way to ITB, I would check that booth out, to see if it's open. Mainly because I kinda crave for dimsums lately, and secondly, because of my curiosity about the inside of that small, eye-catching, well-designed booth.

Going back again to one hour earlier from now, I was singing my way back home when I passed that very same booth. The booth, emitting a dim red glow in the dark of the night, has plastic chairs lining up in front of it. It's open. I considered passing right through it, reminding myself of me being a college, boarding kid, thus I should save money, but in the end, the tempting and incredibly well design of the booth *not to mention the smell of Chinese food* win me over.

The inside wasn't bad at all. It's packed with ingredients, leaving just enough space for two cooks to... well, cook the Chinese foods. I ordered seafood mix, a mix of seafood dimsums, but feels a little disappointed afterwards seeing the tiny portion. I shrug it off and while waiting for my dimsums to cook, took a little moment to mentally applaud and appreciate the well execution of this brilliant Chinese food takeaway booth idea.

I took my fragrant seafood mix, paid 15.000 *still in a little disappointment* and continued my walk to my boarding house.

The idea of a little booth in front of my house seems really nice. I pondered upon the idea for a while, thinking how nice it would be to have a little booth out front my future house. It would be a plain booth, with a display that could change, meaning it won't have to be just a Chinese food booth, or a Yogurt booth, it could be both! I'll open it up whenever I want to, whenever I'm bored at home and have nothing to do. I'll hone my cooking skill so everyone would enjoy my foods, and starts to ask when will I open my booth, to which I answer, "You'll just have to wait.". And on one nights when I opened it, people will start to swarm the place, even texting their friends to say that my place is open.


Imagine how fulfilling would that be.

Imagining me in the future, spending long nights chatting till drop in my booth with my wife *preferably D :p*, while waiting for customers, taking turns in serving them and competing to make better food, puts a smile on my face. The future have endless possibilities, and I know it would be amazing if I could go there with D. We don't actually plan ourselves to stick together till marriage, but hoping on it instead while just going through whatever this thing is :3. 

Lots of ways to enjoy life on the years to come, and I guess a booth out front won't be a bad idea.

P.S. I'll post a picture of the Seafood Mix later ;)

Thursday, June 30, 2011

A Kind Man

Afternoon, readers.

This post is made due to my promise to K that I would try to elaborate what I felt that night. Haha. But I would like to remind you again, that eventhough I've tried so hard to put it in words, it might not be as well-elaborated as your expectation.

It was the night when K told me that he made a Tumblr account about me. He gave me the link and I opened it. I went through the pages, did a quick-read cause I wanted to read it from the first post and go backwards. And from the quick read of the entries, I felt bad instantly.

I felt bad for a lot of reasons. From making he felt all sad everytime I get mad or badmooded. I should better talk to him directly rather than being all silent. I should better be offline rather than being online and let him reached me. And I should better not be that childish to let him know I was in a bad mood.

That's my nature I can't easily change. I grew up to be an introvert who think that my problems might be seen so damn unimportant to other people. I grew up as a girl who can't control her words when she's mad or not in a good mood. That's why I never talked to him everytime I got all badmooded, I don't want to make everything seems worse.

But there he was, always kept reaching me and asked me what happened with me. Convincing me that it's better to let it all out to him and let him know rather than being silent. Comforting me. He always made me feel that I'm never alone. And sometimes, when I didn't feel like talking to anyone, I ignored him.

That is why I told him that he's just too kind for me, for bearing my bad traits. He is always sincere, and I feel really really bad to ignore those sincerity.

And forgive me, if in the future time I would still be silent when I'm mad or in badmood. But in my silence, I will still feel your kindness and sincerity, and I will still feel bad for ignoring, as I always do.

Monday, June 27, 2011

The Secret Trip

Greetings, stranger. In this post we will tell you about our first trip outside town. Yea, D and I actually had this crazy ideas about going outta town just the two of us, and it actually happened last short holiday. Oh, for a side note, D didn't actually told her mother *she's in that rebellious phase lol*. And yeah, we went to... Dufan (Dunia Fantasi) located at Ancol, Jakarta. And now you know that we're Indonesian.

So, we met up at 8 AM in Bogor Station (and now you know we live in Bogor), but you gotta know that I have this bad habits of coming late, so yeah, I was late for like 10 mins. We bought the ticket and went to Dunkin Donut's, I accompanied K to have his breakfast there. We got into the train afterwards, had some light chats before I went sleepy... and finally slept.

AND I TOOK A PICTURE OF HER FALLING ASLEEP! (Y). I would post that here but D would kill me lol. Okay, so along the way, I was there, awake waiting for the ticketman to check our ticket while D was soundly asleep on my shoulder. Such a sleepyhead *slapped*. So anyway, we got off at the right station *luckily*, the Jakarta Kota station. IMHO, generally train stations in Indonesia isn't that good, but it'll suffice for simple transportations.

After went to the toilets and minimarket to buy drinks, we continued our journey by using Jakarta's public transportation num. 15 A. We took off in front of Taman Impian Jaya Ancol to buy tickets and walked for about 5 mins to reach Dufan. After buying tickets (again), we took our first steps in Dufan. Believe it, WE ACTUALLY MADE IT! We were in Dufan!

Lol we got pretty excited cause it felt surreal. It's her first time going outta town only with a guy, and the same applies to me. Actually the last time I visited Dufan was like a month ago, but nevertheless I was excited. You have to see the look on D's face, she was like a little girl who went to a toyhouse store . Her last visit was like 3 years ago, right D? Okaay, so we took pictures, and actually there's one we can share. It's a picture of our hands:

Our hands. Lol guess which's D's.

Hahahaha moving on to the tale. You're right, K, I was super duper excited! Fyi, we used a similar t-shirts we bought from an E-Comp. After taking some pics, we decided to queue on Kora-Kora. We also took a picture by myself so it won't look as good as being taken by other people. Long story short, it was our turn. We sat on the very right side of the ship. K challenged me when someone screamed first, they will got hit by other's hand. And sadly, it was me cause I couldn't hold my scream any longer -____- and what seems more annoying was, K didn't scream at all. Pity me.

Kora-Kora
HAHAHAHA I WIN LOL. And Kora-Kora wasn't my favorite ride, and D said that she liked it so much that once, she ride it 5 times in a row. AND SHE STILL SCREAMED FIRST, GO ME!. Okay, moving on with the tale, after Kora-Kora we go to Hysteria! D never ride it before, so she was kinda scared. The ride is basically, you sit down, then you will be launched upwards then you will be slammed back down. Super breathtaking.
Hysteria.
Yeah, literally breathtaking until I couldn't feel my soul up there. I screamed while K just laughed. LOL. He told me to enjoy the view. I did enjoy it so much, the blue ocean over there was so damn fabulous! And finally we landed, I could barely feel my feet on the ground for a while. Then we went to other ride, which is Tornado. We have rode it before, so it wasn't as thrilling as Hysteria (for me). But still, I screamed -___- And fortunately, because the queue wasn't so long, we got 2 rounds of riding Tornado! Yay!
Tornado.
A little about Hysteria, there's two side of it right? You sit on the backside, then you get an amazing view of the ocean, and if you sit on the frontside, you get a view of Dufan. So for you fellas that's fortunate enough to ride it one day, be sure to ride on the backside. Okay, so the next ride is tornado, and we ride it for a loooong time. I was so dizzy after riding it lols, a good kind of dizzy tho. The other people on that ride was like, begging to stop the ride. Epic lol.

K told me that he went dizzy so we went to go to Perang Bintang or Star Wars to relieve the dizziness. It was his favorite ride. He gained more than 15000 points while I just got 7000. And weirdly, I was the one who got dizzy after riding it. We went to McD to have lunch, and tadaaa... we got jackpots! Some of my friends in my batch who go to the same school with me were there, and I was a bit confused wondering that they might tell my parents, but I don't really think
about it. I didn't want to ruin my very good mood in such a lovely day.

Perang Bintang

FYI, it's 16.600 points. I compeletely owned D and all the people in our train. NOT my favorite ride, but I enjoyed beating the crap out of everybody nonetheless *slapped*. Yeaa, and all the time on lunch, we discussed excuses to go with D's mother if she found out. Oh yes, we're your typical rebellious teenager. And just FYI I don't really like McD's chicken, but the scrambled egg was delicious tho. Oh, D was on a light fever that day, so she asked me to remind her not to drink cold beverages, and I did. She didn't drink her coke that she ordered along with her foods LOL what a shame. We used it to wash our hands instead HAHAHA. After some times thinking about excuses, we decided to just shrug it off, and go to Halilintar!

Halilintar! It took some time to find the ride because the location is kinda far from the restaurant. And from that time, we kept an eye of those highschool friends we just met. Quite happy because we couldn't find them anymore in the rest of the day. Aaand K challenged me again to sit on the front seat but I was scared. Fortunately, we didn't get that front seat. Instead, we sat in the back side of the ride, it was his first time sitting in the back side, if I recall it right.

She recalled it right. I always took the front seat thinking that it'll be the scariest, but I was proven wrong. It turns out that being in the back part of the train gives you more speed, so it was kinda scarier. But you couldn't enjoy the view tho lols. Oh, I should mention that in every ride there was a cam and you could buy the picture of you in that ride, but we didn't buy any because our faces was so ugly in the rides. Total mess. Okay, we finished Halilintar and I didn't get nauseous, turns out sitting in the back equals less dizziness. Oh, here's a pic of Halilintar:

Halilintar

After riding Halilintar, we intended to ride Niagara. But seeing the long queue, we decided to go to Rumah Kaca first. It was my first time to go there, but eventho K has gone there before, he didn't really remember the way out. So it was a total journey. But what made it more fun, we took picts. No, not just ordinary pictures! You know that the mirrors reflect the light and there are a hell lot of mirrors. We made experiments! The lights were so dim so the camera blitz went out. And if we point the blitz to the mirror, our face couldn't be seen, rite? Thank God there was K, he's so damn good in science. He calculated it then voila! After some failures, we made perfect pictures!

Yea, so we took pictures with D's cellphone rite? So she pointed the cellphone to the mirror in our right, while we smile to the cellphone reflected on our left. In the end, the photograph is our face inside the mirror that's in the mirror D's cellphone's facing to. Confusing? Indeed, but the result is epic. I feel epic. So sorry we couldn't share the pic here, because then, our identities will be revealed. Lol I feel like a secret agent.

We are secretive. Lols. Then we went to Niagara-gara. The queue was as the same as we saw before. But we talked about so many things so we didn't feel like queuing so long. Nah, it's our turn! Actually I didn't want to be on the first seat but no one sat there so I instantly be the one who sat in the front. Nah, the water splashed and I was so damn wet. K was too, but not too wet was I was.

D was damn wet! We actually took pictures, and there was this picture of D looking like some sort of swamp monster. But then again, as much as I wanted to post it, D would kill me lols. A shame actually, you should see it, it's damn epic. And so, after Niagara-gara, we went to the other wet attraction which is Arung Jeram! The last time I went here, Arung Jeram was closed *on this occasion, Bianglala was closed* so I was damn excited. But then again, the thing about Arung Jeram is... the queue is the longest of them all -___-
Anyway, here's the picture of Niagara-gara and Arung Jeram!

Niagara


Arung Jeram

Shame, shame. I was the one making silly pictures the whole day, hm? Hahaha. Anyway, we didn't buy any photos because our faces were damn ugly lols. We weren't as wet as after riding Niagara, but we wanted to dry ourselves up with the afternoon breeze. It was my idea actually, cause K didn't really like to ride that ride. It was Ontang-Anting. I sat on the edge while K sat on the inner part of it. He told me he got kinda dizzy right after we landed, I felt bad -___- But he didn't get worse so it was kinda fine.

Ontang Anting

Lols, I had a silly picture too right before we leave. So we ride the Ontang-Anting, and it was fine, so breezy, and I actually found a way to not be dizzy! Lols I feel awsum. Oh, and about the Arung Jeram ride, it was AWESOOME! But we didn't get wet tho, I can't stay on my seat so I went and stood up just to avoid getting wet and voila, I wasn't wet. lol. Okay, so nearing the end, we were about to ride the Merry-go-Round, but we canceled it because there's no time left. So instead, we went and buy a hotdog. AND THIS IS WHERE D TOOK A SILLY PIC OF ME MUNCHING MY HOTDOG =))

Yes, it was silly! And he mentioned something inappropriate to be written here that made me lose my appetite of eating the rest of my hotdog. K took a picture of me too, but it wasn't as weird as his. Haha. And finally we decided to take picture together, so K asked a man to take picture of us. It was a really good picture with Caroussel as its background. It was near 5 PM so we left Dufan to catch up the train to Bogor. We walked along the road to fetch Angkot, it was breezy and I felt better although I wasn't fully healthy.

Actually, it's not my comment that's inappropriate... *whispers* it's D's mind that's inappropriate. But anyway, we went home after taking a picture. It's really a shame D is unhealthy, even after I gave her a pill of panadol earlier that noon. I enjoyed our trip to the station, and we got there on time to catch our train schedule. Thank God we didn't miss it, cause if we do, we'd be home an hour later, and I bet D's parents will go nuts. Lol, nothing eventful actually happened until we got in the train.

We got in the train back to home. So I was really tired and K allowed me to sleep on his shoulder. I tried to sleep along the way on his shoulder, but I couldn't, so I opened my eyes again. K suddenly borrowed my phone and typed something until at least I got what he's talking about. There was a woman who sat across us watched us strangely from the time we got in the train!

Yeah, D was sleeping on my shoulder and I was about to sleep on her head when I noticed this woman sitting across us that's staring at us all the way. I stared back but she did not falter, instead, she stared harder. It's like she knows us. And thus, I became somewhat insecure, cause if she does know us and told me or D's parent, we'll be totally screwed. And so, after unsuccessful stare, I did something with D.

You know what K typed on my cellphone? He asked me to follow his lead. I didn't really get it 'what kind of lead should I follow' at the first time but then I knew so we kinda had a fake conversations that consisted of fake informations such as: we went to Jakarta with some of our friends who got separated in train. Strangely, the stranger didn't look away from us, so we went kinda quiet for the rest of the way. Until finally she went off in some stations before us, and later known that she got nothing to do with our family relations. We went off at Bogor station, and took 02 until BTM.

Lol, we were so afraid that our families will know about our forbidden relationship #exaggaration. Yeah, and after that, the day came to a close. It was one of the happiest day I had with D. Third happiest, maybe we will tell you about the rest later, but you just have to wait ;). The bottomline is, we actually made our mad idea came true! I feel awesome. We ARE awesome.

I remember when I and K were about to wait for me to take 08 and go home, we went talking about our adventure. It was a total fun, K has successfully took me on my rebellious phase to something really rebellious. Oh, I haven't told my parents about this. Hope they won't find out. Pray for us, readers! Wait for our next epic stories, but I don't force you, tho.

Seeya later :D

Distraction

I've never been really distracted from the day when my report is given to my parents. I usually got panicked, some kind of regrets rushed into me in the night, or get myself busy with unimportant things just to keep me distracted by the fact that tomorrow is the d-day.

But it was June 2011.

K told me that the last day of my exam week will be the first day of us to get into a talk. Yes, readers, K is leaving Bogor to college, and at that time we haven't decided on what would we be after K leave. I mean, Bogor and Bandung is so distant, we won't be able to see each other for months. I used to question myself, how would a relationship work if we don't see each other? Having the thought that I and K will part in a week saddened me. So I thought so hard and came up with an idea.

So, after one tiring week of last exam, I got fully distracted by this thing. By myself and himself. By the future. I thought we need a lot of time to think what's best for us, but it took only less than 2 hours when K finally said that he wanted to stay this way. Or in another word, have an LDR. What I know is, next time I agreed his idea, cause we both know that deep inside our hearts, we don't want this to end... yet.

It was a really nice week to spend with K, until the last day he stayed in Bogor. We had a really good time we know we won't forget for the rest of our lives. And it was 2 days straight to the d-day, and I didn't even think about my reports.

It's not because only I had some quality time with K, but it's also because his help.

I've been studying hard for the exam back then, limiting myself to communicate with him, so I wouldn't get any remedials, and my last week with him won't be ruined. And I succeed! Ah, it's not fully because of my hardwork, it was because of his help too.

K helped me. A LOT. TOO OFTEN. From January (where we know the 2nd semester started) until I had the exam week. Even via texts, or IMs, or DMs, and direct teaching.

Friday, when I got my report and he left. I wish I could show him my report in person, show him how much he has inspired and motivated me through the whole semester.

Thank you, I'm a step closer to my dreams :)



P.S. If you ever wonder what's this post about, don't ask me. I have no idea. Don't be mad.

Saturday, June 25, 2011

It Began

It began, D and  I officially has started a Long Distance relationship. As of yesterday, I have started to live in Bandung, away from D.  We decided to go the distance a week before I go, like what we agreed upon *so we won't think about parting until 1 week before we part*. I hope everything will be okay with us.

And as I write this post, alone in my rented room, all I can think about is D. Lol, It's going to be a tough year.

Monday, June 6, 2011

How I Met The Damsel

Worry not, cause this is not a parody attempt of the hit rom-com, but a real-life story instead. I gave up writing humor a long time ago when my mind got more rational. Not promising I would not start again soon though, I may post some lame-ass humor post, even here, in the near future.

But anyway, let's just cut to the chase.DO NOT expect a 10 season story on this cause this is just another uneventful meeting, I assure you.

It all started on around mid-2009 in the front yard of our lovely *yet corrupt* school, SMA Negeri * Bogor -we're not telling you what's our highschool, yet. It was the afternoon assembly on the regeneration period of an extracurricular in our school, one that your mother... -wait, scratch that- I mean, Damsel and I joined. We actually joined on the same year, despite the fact she's my junior, so both of us are new in that club -cause extracurricular is such a long word.

And just like that, I saw her for the first time. She was wearing a scout uniform -you see, D is a sociable person unlike me, and she also joined Scout, and is looking so fresh. Fresh as a freshman -just FYI, she's a freshman. I was not interested at all -well, maybe a little- in her at that time. Back then, I only see her as someone I will be acquaintanced to.

The first words I hear from D was a simple introduction -it was meant so that everyone will get aquaintanced, it is a committee regeneration period after all, shyly spoken. After stating her name, *********** ***** ****** -not the real amount of letters, she finishes with a hint of a smile. Yea, she was showing off her rabbit teeth.

But never once I imagined that that rabbit smile will be my favorite for a long, long time. 

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Prelude to A Cheesiness

Greetings, people!

Welcome to this blog! For you who have unfortunately arrived here, you might find some (no, I guess all of them are) cheesy posts about two random people who have coincidentally met and fallen in like with each other. Those 2 random people, who are the writers, once had a random idea to make a random blog consisted of silly-random things they randomly done. And here's the realization of the writers' --later known as The Knight (boy) and The Damsel (girl)--ideas to keep them staying in touch with each other anywhere and anytime.

Yes, welcome. The previous paragraph was written by The Damsel and this one is by me, The Knight. For those of you who haven't found this blog utterly cheesy and ridiculous and are still reading up to this point, I do hope our nonsensical babbling could somehow amuse you *altho this blog wasn't made to do so*, but do enjoy. A lot of things will be posted, about our life, our interests, and many more. By now you should be able to tell which one is me and which one is The Damsel by the color of the font.

So, who are we? We are still teenagers with the same birthyear but different ages. The Knight is in his sweet 17 life, while I am still 16. The Knight is currently waiting for his new life in his college, while I'm stuck in my highschool with some lovely friends. So, let's call me a Senior High School student and The Knight as a college student.

Yea, so you will get two tales, one from college and one from highschool. Worry not, despite what The Damsel *who from now I will refer as D for convenience sake* said, not all of the stories will be lovey-dovey *cause honestly, we hate it too*. More life journal will come out, depicting our everyday life. Actually, this is your ordinary journal blog, the only uniqueness being the fact that it's owned by two people, me and D.

So, strangers, if you want to see more entries from two different worlds here, do come here in some other time. We don't oblige you, though, remembering you will only see nonsensical posts. But anyway, thank you for stopping by! Enjoy our ride :D